Call Me Sisyphus

You've heard of writer's block - is Podcaster's block a thing? Another month has come and gone and still no episode.

In my defense, it's not like I haven't tried. Another couple scheduling issue is leading me to believe that perhaps yet another two different guests who have shown interest in recording are having second thoughts; which has been giving me second thoughts.

Now let me be clear. I have no second thoughts about wanting to do this podcast and the level of commitment I want to have to delivering on my promises, both with quality episodes, but also the release schedule.

Who Are We?

I find myself faced with yet another dilemma of how to define this show. In the very beginning I wanted to be the next Sam Harris. As Conover and I have said many times, we quickly realized that was not a viable structure for us, we reevaluated what we were doing, what our central message was, and what the best way was to achieve that goal. And that self reflection lead to almost 30 more episodes of which we are very proud.

But here we are again and I am questioning ourselves once again. I last talked about getting a higher level of guest and higher level of podcast. I have since been trying to get schedule guests in whom I've interested in having on the show that have some aspect of their lives that seem more successful than mine.

The two people who I've been trying to book happen to be friends, but unlike past guests, they are not just interesting people about whom I want to learn more about and think would make for good, thoughtful conversation. No offense at all to any previous guests, but I simply have been at my own skill level as a host.

The confidence I have that my hosting skills have improved initially lead me to try to up my game in the guest department in terms of giving the podcast legitimacy. I did not forsee, however that this would greatly decrease the pool of people who could be guests. I also did not foresee that this would inevitably lead to the scheduling issues I've found myself currently experiencing.

It turns out that many of my more successful friends do not want to put their name on a conversation in which they divulge their unfiltered thoughts about life, the world, politics, religion, etc. This is extremely frustrating, but I can't say I don't understand. These people are worried about their careers, and while they might be forward thinking enlightened people, there are many forces that might hinder their success if exposed to other, less progressive entities. So the self reflection continues. Wanting strongly to keep to the schedule that we've established, another thought occurred to me:

Part of the allure of podcasts like Rogan's is the episodic nature of guests returning and indirectly building in the conversations they've previously had. This allows listeners to get to know the show and the guests better.

Aside from the Trump Trilogy episodes, and the second episode with Simer, every other guest has only ever been featured once, despite the fact many of those episodes have ended with us saying with all genuine intentions, "we've gotta do this again soon."

Another Shot at Rebirth

Its hard for me to feel like another 4 weeks without a new episode is a failure. But part of carving your own path, part of creating something about which you really care involves giving yourself the time to course correct. Failure is a strong word, but it's not necessarily a dirty word.

I'm doing my best to use this rough patch to come out better the other side with something I can be proud of, something I can achieve, and perhaps something I never expected I would create. That was always the purpose of this podcast - to lead myself down an unfamiliar road and see where it takes me.

In the near future, you will hear from people you've heard from before. We will get deeper into the stories of people from whom we were originally interested in hearing, and ran out of time to dive into everything we wanted to discuss. That seems to me at this point to be the best course of action. Of course we're always looking for new guests and new people will be on the show. But especially to get ourselves out of this little rut, I'm going to rely on who and what I know. We've had some great episodes with the people who have already been guests and there's no reason we can't have more with those same people.

Thank you again for this who still care. I appreciate those you are still willing to hang on and see what this can become. This time in my life is one of fear and discovery; Independence and test of character. It means the world to me that there are people who will be able to share these bumps in the road as well as the triumphs that characterize this period of my life. And if you're reading this from the future, I'm excited for you to have something for which you care enough to look back on. And I fully believe that will be the case